Five years ago I intuitively decided to stop meditating after years of daily practice.
Instead, I dedicated that time (several hours each week) to a more literal kind of inner work - de-armouring my yoni & discovering doorways to God that were no where near my third eye 
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This was SO radical for me, but I just knew I had to trust the call.
For once, I was being led from inside my body, rather than some externalised authority who claimed to know “the way”.
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I let Goddess show me through the currents of energy in my body, rather than turning to a Guru or intermediary who apparently held the key.
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My body became the teacher & I began to really trust her -to trust myself. 
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It actually took MORE discipline than my sitting meditation practice, to stay with it…to remain patient & present with my sensations & emotions;
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To increase my bandwidth for sustained pleasure -not to mention the pain, shame, anger & grief that was unearthed in the process.
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This was DEEP healing work.
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I chose celibacy for this time (a couple of years in total) which felt healing after a string of traumatic relationship experiences.
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I even abstained from dopamine style peak 0rgasms, choosing to go deeper & explore the unexplored, which opened me to mystical pleasure states that I did not know were possible (yet my body wisdom was guiding me towards) & mind-blowing, heart-opening rapture 
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I unlocked a whole lot of dormant shakti, cleared shame & distorted programming, grounded myself (some say the cervix IS the root chakra), retrieved my soul, & healed the split between my spirit & my body.
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This is ongoing work of course, but for about a year this was my focus, and it radically transformed me.
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I noticed that compared to a long sit, a self-pleasure practice had me feeling way more connected to the world around me, my body, my feminine energy & my creativity - not to mention - GOD!
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My body wisdom & availability for subtle pleasure increased dramatically.
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The world became more colourful 
, I felt a deep communion with nature, new levels of intimacy in all my relationships.
, I felt a deep communion with nature, new levels of intimacy in all my relationships..
I reclaimed so much of myself that I had denied in the delusion that to be spiritual meant I couldn’t be s3xual.
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I took SO much of my own power back. And I became WAY more discerning with who or how I engage s3xually with.
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These days I tend to work with the energy of eros and pleasure in a meditative way (which I teach in Shakti Yoga) + my temple groups, tuning into the background hum of pleasure that is ever-present. 
Using breath, movement, sound & attuning to currents of shakti to bring them more to life.
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I’m not saying a meditation practice isn’t beneficial, but I’ve seen a lot of practitioners who are so hardcore that there’s no suppleness or softness. The feminine is repressed (sound familiar?).
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It’s dry and devoid of delight. If your meditation practice means neglecting the body and our holy passion - then is it really worthwhile???
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I’d love your thoughts and feelings on this! Comment below...
Love, Jasmine Rose
